In Which Cynthia Writes a Poem

I used to write poetry all the time when I was a kid, but I kind of gave it up at some point. I was free associating while listening to music this evening, and below is the result.

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I remember once
when I used to sleep
and not get up
and dust filled the bed
and it was fine
and good

I remember feeling nothing
nothing
nothing at all
and I remember everything.

Feeling nothing
that hollow feeling
nothing
like a loud quiet
one can only bear it for so long
before falling into madness

I remember once
or twice
when I used to sleep
only when the chemicals had taken hold

I remember once
a long long time ago
sleeping on a hard wood floor
and dreaming of nobody in particular
no time for hangovers
time to make the donuts

I remember once
waking up
next to someone
who didn't return my affection
it was awkward
fortunately he was a heavy sleeper

I remember once
when I used to sleep
and sleep
and sleep
and sleep
and have dreams of twisted corridors
with no possibility of end

I remember waking up
and I never want to sleep again.